August 6th, 2011
Birthdays. Jagged Pills. Closing Doors.
It’s my friend’s 30th birthday today. And that got me thinking about new chapters and new beginnings. I remember when I turned 30 it felt like a BIG deal. I was closing the door to my wild and raucous 20’s, I was going to be in a new “group” and I was afraid that I wasn’t going to be considered youthful anymore. Instead, what happened was that I felt more myself than I ever had, I had the maturity I lacked in my 20’s but held on the spirit and spunk and vivaciousness that lives in me no matter how old I get, and I had an understanding of life that I couldn’t have even imagined in my 20’s. My 30’s have ROCKED so far. And had my 20’s never come to an end, I never would have known how amazing 30 was, right around the corner.
This got me thinking about this part of my RV trip coming to an end. In three days, we will be back in Camarillo, returning Bess to her rightful owner. Just four weeks ago, we knew absolutely zero about RV’s. I feared driving it, parking it, doing the dumps, figuring out the generator, pulling up to the gas station…literally, EVERYTHING about it scared me. Today, we are troubleshooting water pump issues, doing three point turns in crowded city streets, and parallel parking with an ease that all the guys around us are in awe of. And I just feel so proud. So proud of us for pushing through the fear it took to get in the driver’s seat and start moving. Proud of us for busting through the stereotype that girls can’t drive and operate RV’s. And proud of us, for leaping into a completely unknown (and perceived dangerous) world of a life on the road.
Life seems to always be about one door closing and another one opening. Nothing new happens without something old ending. A turning of a page. A brand new chapter. And as I sit in the RV in the middle of the Utah desert on the road to Dead Horse Point State Park, with the jagged, red mountains to my right, and desert trees to my left, I ponder (and am so grateful for) how I ended up here. And the only thing that keeps coming up as an answer to that question, is that I left the house. Plain and simple. Nothing new ever happens, no change is ever created by staying in one place. By doing the same thing you’ve always done.
It takes movement to change your life. And it’s absolutely possible to do so, as long as you move. Literally. Or figuratively. Either.
As this door closes, I think about which door I will open. Which chapter I will write. What will fill the pages and who the characters will be. Wonder what the arc of the story will be and what love affair will ensue (since there MUST be a love affair in any story I write). I imagine myself and Natalie, two fun and free wild women with wind in our hair, giggling and singing, and loving and crying and talking and philosophizing and marveling that this IS our life. That’s how we are now. And I know it will continue.
All I know is that I want to keep going. I’m not done living in an RV. I’m not done meeting people and inspiring them to take on their own adventures in freedom and fun. I don’t care that we haven’t seen ONE woman driving an RV in all four weeks and all 8 states and all (at least) 300 RVs we’ve seen. I love it. I want to keep going. And I want to now, give back.
Natalie and I are starting something new, called “Girls Gone Moto.” It’s all about how to create a mobile lifestyle, and create the kind of life you want, by getting moving. Getting moto. We want to continue this lifestyle and impact people’s lives, all over the country. A website is happening. A truck and a trailer are happening. We’re getting moto, no matter what it takes. The details are being worked out, but I wanted to let you all in on the secret now, as I imagine this thing will grow and develop over time. And I will be continuing to talk about it.
Power on my computer is about to run out and we don’t have electricity hook ups in the RV. But before I go, I want to tell you something. I know you have a dream. An idea of something you’ve always wanted and never thought you could have. I know it lives in your heart, not your head. And I know that it’s been in there for a VERY long time. I’m here to give you permission. You can HAVE it. You CAN do it. NOTHING is impossible. But you must, make a promise to yourself that you will go out and try to get it. And don’t leave any room for fear to take over. Stand strong in your desire. See it clearly in your head. DECIDE it is going to happen. And then leave the house. And close the door. So that you may open another one. Also. I love you.
What’s your secret dream? That thing you’ve been wanting and not allowing yourself to have? Leave me a comment and tell me all about it.
Love this. It’s bringing tears of intuition to my eyes. My barometer is spiking. This means something for me. Right now.
And then, as I scroll down the page I catch my testimonal flashing across the screen…a sign?
Please keep me posted on GGM. I want to be moto! :)
Miss V…I don’t know specifically what you’re talking about but I can FEEL it so deep down. Whatever you’re thinking…do it. Whatever is sparked inside you…fuel it. And if you need an extra push, call me.
So much love to you,
Sally, what a great story. Congrats on pushing through your fears and taking this RV trip. Your future plans for “Girls Gone Moto” sound so exciting! And your last paragraph is so powerful.
Something I had been waiting on was blogging. I had been imagining it for months and months. I finally took action and started four weeks ago. Now I am blogging weekly and each week is a little less scary. Mostly, I find that hitting “publish” releases all kinds of pent-up energy. YES, taking action is so important.
Thanks for blogging. I enjoy reading what you write. Enjoy the rest of your trip!
Hey Laurie! I COMPLETELY understand what you mean about hitting “publish.” Man…I still feel like that sometimes!! And congratulations for pushing through and starting your blog!! It’s such an amazing feeling when you bring to fruition something you’ve been wanting for a long time. Celebrate!
This is totally how I felt about turning thirty. And as I stand on the brink of thirty-one…I feel exactly what you’re talking about, Lady. :)
It just keeps getting better, eh???
So.Much.FUN!! DelightFULL that the dream is dreaming itself ONWARD! Yes, you have sirred the wanderlust in me as well! Looking forward to your new adventures, intertwined with mine. Thank YOU for being an inspiration!
Hey Kathleen…YES!!!! I am looking forward to your adventures as well. You must tell me what is in the plan!!! Thank you for being here and sharing with me. It inspires me to hear your story.
Teaching abroad!! Muahhh… it’s a scary jump but this blog is SUPER inspiring! And man, I too fear the idea of driving an RV (fear it like WHOA). But maybe one day, right?!?!
So looking forward to seeing where you end up next!!!
p.s. i just saw a lady pulling an RV into a gas station the other day, so there’s 1!
YEAH DUDE!!! DO IT DO IT DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
And yeah, you can TOTALLY drive an RV. We’ll start a club. And caravan. And it’ll be freaking awesome. You in?
Last week it became unbearable to live where I was living, although I LOVED the house, it was my home. But I had been betrayed there one too many times. So, I decided to move. I had nowhere to go. It didn’t matter. My supportive brother rallied his friends, and I packed and moved my fully-furnished home in 6 hours. I left. I moved, so that things would change. Now, almost 30 days later, I am still paying rent and utilities there and am homeless. I have my two dogs, one blind and three-legged. I am now a traveling circus. But it is ok. I am relocating to a city that I have always been near, but never resided in- Hollywood. Let the next chapter begin. Actually, eff that- let the whole new damn book begin. Thank you for your inspiration and way of support Salad. I love you.
Hey lady…it takes guts to do what you did. Sometimes the hard thing is the right thing and it only makes sense in retrospect. Sounds like you’ve already gotten a taste of that. And cheers to a whole new book! I so respect your courage, through and through. Much love.
You are so inspiring! You always seem to be saying just what I need to hear. Very excited to see where the next, new chapters of your life take you, I have no doubt you will rock every last one of them!
Miss Dana! I feel like I haven’t talked to you in a million years! Send me an email and do tell me what you’ve been up to!
Love this lady. You and Natalie are just beaming with happiness, you are the perfect tag team :) I so agree with you about your 30’s. I didn’t realize just how “young” I was in my 20’s until my 30’s self kicked in. 30’s rock. I very recently realized I have a dream that I didn’t fully envision for myself until a bad experience happened. Yup, one door closes and another opens. Just when I thought I knew what all my dreams were! Will be telling you about it! :)
Lady you continue to amaze me with your depth of experiences and your shiny-ness in dreams. You not only have been through a lot but you continue to strive to help others with such a kindness and tenderness that most people never experience. You are truly amazing and I’m lucky to know you. From my heart to yours…can’t wait to hear more.
I stumbled upon your site through Nomadic Chick there.
This post hit me pretty hard. I just turned 30 on 8/5. I have a dream to travel, originally, it was by RV with my best friend (she bailed on the idea for now). I forged ahead and had my vardo (portable home) built. Now I realize I’m stuck in a rut where money is the thing holding me back. I respect you for your inspirational words and look forward to your ‘Girls Gone Moto’ set. I am dreaming of the day when I do that too.
Girl I completely understand. Money is always something that needs to be worked out, and it’s definitely do-able with some finagling and some creativity. Keep the vision of what you want very close. And let me know if there is anything I can do to support your dream. You can do this girl!!!
With the bases laoded you struck us out with that answer!