August 29th, 2011
It’s been a wild ride ever since I got back from the first leg of our RV trip. And by wild, I don’t mean rip-roarin’, tearing it up, having a blast. I mean, wild in that there’s been so many emotions in such a short period of time. And honestly, I’d share them all with you, but at this point I’m pretty bored of them.
I got in a bit of a slump, like we do. Where things felt impossible, my dreams felt silly, and that there seemed no possible way my life was ever going to turn out the way I wanted it to. Hopes and dreams of building the next leg of the trip just seemed to slip by as I lay on my parents couch watching another episode of Glee. I checked out business books from the library, and intended to read them, but I didn’t. I intended to have a plan in place for the next few months, but I didn’t. Any magic that percolated, was shot down the next day by my rational mind, who always seems to have a British accent, snarkily saying, “HA! THAT won’t work, what a steeuuuuupid idea.”
Well…today, I woke up with a new lease on life. Yet again. And decided that I’m fuckin OVER thinking that way. And decided that the rational mind has no business butting into my dreams.
We are taught to value rationality. And logic. That if you can’t see, or prove, or know something, that it doesn’t have merit and doesn’t exist. That if it doesn’t make “sense” based on some arbitrary rules that we created a long time ago, that we shouldn’t do it. The rational mind operates on fear. Like “oh no…of course you shouldn’t sell all your belongings and travel the world like you’ve always wanted to…that doesn’t make sense. What if you don’t like it? What if you run out of money? What if you’ll never find a relationship?” The dream mind operates in magic and limitless possibilities. The dream mind doesn’t need anything to make “sense.” It just needs a vision. It needs you to believe in it. And from that place, anything can happen.
I mean, think about it. How did Oprah become Oprah? It wasn’t because it made “sense.” It wasn’t because it was logical to think that a girl born in absolute poverty was to become one of the richest women in the world. The rational mind would have balked at that. Luckily, the dream mind took over. Oprah became Oprah because she believed she could. She envisioned what she wanted. And she worked hard. And she never gave up. She chose to create magic over succumbing to logic.
And as I sat here, this morning, finding myself on the slippery slope towards doom and gloom thoughts, I made a choice. That that wasn’t going to be me anymore. That I’m going to create what I want, no matter what. The trick, first, is to KNOW what I want. So I’m going to start there. I’m going to give myself some time and space to go back to those visions that have been there forever, but I’ve pushed away because they seemed too stupid to create, and I’m going to revisit them. I’m going to see them in detail. And then I’m going to write it all down. And by envisioning it, I’m going to be able to create it.
I don’t really know why, but this just reminded me of that song in the 90’s, that goes “get out of my dreams…and into my car.” It’s kind of what’s happening here. That once you dream the dream in specifics, then you’re able to bring it out just from your mind, and manifest it in real life. Like the dream is coming with me in my car, and I get to drive around with my dreams in my passenger seat. Hmmm…incredibly cheesy metaphor, but it also seems appropriate for me since I will be going back out on the road very soon, driving all over the country, hanging out with my dreams.
I know that the Universe provides for us, I’ve seen it happen time and time again. But we must be clear and specific on what we want. That’s where I shall start. Today. What about you?
You been in a slump too? Need some hardcore envisioning as well? Leave me a comment and let’s kick each other’s butts into gear.